HOPE

Its Life.

I always have wanted to experience each color of it.
Smile in pain , appreciate other's disdain.

But today it feels like m all empty.
There's this BIG void that might never get filled up again.
Its like a part of me is missing. Being always the bright and shy one altogether it always kept me away and when finally i did have that moment after mustering enough of strength..it just faded away into nothingness....
and with that went this part of me that will never be the usual one again.

I dont know what it was or it is. I am unsure of what it might do to me. Neither am i aware of  what i feel.
I dont wan to feel anything. Or think anything. Want this time to pass......

This time will pass. But i will still feel the way i do.

Its like euphoria and pain altogether. It's bliss.

*smiles*

But i know it is something worth suffering for. Worth bearing. Worth wanting and worth living for.
I know this.

"After dusk comes the dawn,
Said the one dressed in fawn..."

Thank you god for making me suffer. For making me feel alive. For giving me something worth crying for. For making me smile and weep together. Thank you..

What also you have shown me is that despite of all this there's always hope.

*ecstatic*