When I was five I wanted to be an actress. I'd watch these fancy movies and would want to act in one. Long hair, pretty face, fine clothes and shoes.

When I reached ten I wanted to be an astronaut. That spaceship of mine i'd imagine myself of on as leader of some mission feeling extremely proud.

Then came my thirTEEN and first time I felt for people . A whole bunch of emotions were thrusted upon me .. something I was oblivion of  and I wanted to be nothing. Yeah how cool is to be nothing :P

An year later getting a hold upon some parts of my life I craved to be a science person.  Geeky freaking science person.

And today after surviving there 17 years of my life I want to be HAPPY.

Yeah I know we all want to be. :)

Happiness has different meanings for different people and i would emphasize on the fact different connotations at different phases of one's survival . All of us keep an eye for it but how often do we realize it is with us? It is something within us.

God has always been fair. He has given us all a soul to be looked after. A heart to love. A mind to think. A gut to feel. And a LIFE to live. And that's what comprises the compound called HAPPINESS. And these elements mixed in wright proportion can be turned into BLISS.

Oh NOOOOOOOOOOOOO but let go...

Words escape me as i try here to pen down my feelings.

Its this time of our lives that we'll never be able to forget . I guess i don't want to too.

It's like standing on a crossroad, choosing what you want to and what must be served. You feel so affectionate but you cannot permit your own self to discern what you want to.
I'm sure you all must have experienced somewhere deep down this perplexing emotion. I wonder if we've a word for this.

Probably, i know what it is. Its our dearest LOVE.

Yes, I am in love and i guess I've always been in .

*smiles*

But its not the ROMEO n JULIET love. Its the love for petty things, colors of life and yes, for some homo sapiens :P This love has time and again helped me in unraveling elements i never even knew existed. This love has made me smile in pain, appreciate other's disdain, contentment, and sensations that cannot be explained.

Above all it has given me such wonderful souls. So much so that i don't want to relinquish now and hold them on forever. And i guess we all want to.

But lately this love has given me all the strength to  LET GO. Because holding something for ever is like cutting someone's wings, not letting one find its own glory. And i want my souls to fly very HIGH. We'll want to live.

Letting one go doesn't connote cutting all connections but this art of losing gives us all the fidelity to acquire something again and who knows that something might be the same lost thing ;)

What more this phase of emotional turbulence has taught me that NOTHING lasts for ever. Maybe we've phases of our forever. And a phase of forever will have to last to let the next forever commence.  :)

So LOSE something everyday. LET someone go today. And stay close to this love. Because we all are artists indeed.  

And its not emotional turbulence, its emotional bliss.


*LettingGo*