Alone Forever.

Yo!
Alone forever is what describes me the BEST. As my peers would look at me and hastily comment ,"oh shes always lonely!"

But was i ever?
Agreed i'd sit there all by myself and at times maybe smile or just look somewhere for hours and do nothing. And at other times i'd completely lose myself in a subject called SCIENCE. But i was never alone, never sad, never nostalgic but at times yes melancholic.

I always had all those classmates who'd discourage me in every possible way, look at me like m not good enough and yes they harbored schadenfreude. I was greeted by those looks, expressions of disgust and snobbish people all around of all sorts who had lost themselves in this world trying to prove things to everyone except themselves.

And then there were people sympathizing with me and people wondering why is she always like that? They'd come to me compelling me to talk to girls around. Once i was standing all by myself peeping outside the window near our school hall admiring the weather when my principal came along and advised me to make some friends.

But i somehow CHERISHED that period of loneliness as it seemed to others.

That was my time. That phase of my life gave me the liberty to be myself. Be RECKLESS like no one exists. And that's what i want to be and I've been like that always somewhere inside and outside, it just came out more prominently in those four years.

I always had those lessons being taught by my teachers. Science and maths and social and Hindi and my dearest ENGLISH.( In a school like ours you can survive being dumb but it'll be hell if you dont know English that well)

And lessons of much more importance.. lessons of LIFE.

Neither did i make any efforts to get out of that seemingly loneliness. I embraced it with my arms wide open and it gave me moments. I saw people. How she was trying to give that impression of being Richie Rich, the other being super caring and then another one being the most intelligent of all and apparently being what they are not.

These characters never made me grumble or grumpy but smile. Because i knew there will be many more out there like them looking the happiest, seemingly having the most happening life but losing themselves each day by adhering to what they are expected to and asked to by their allies. Being less lively , indeed solus.

And for them i'll epitomize that ALONE FOREVER.

*euphoric*

*bullary*

For INFINITY and BEYOND........